So, Andrieh Vitimus’s December #domagick challenge was an incredible experience. I got so much out of it and feel that I grew as a person and did a lot of healing. In life, there are many areas that we strive to effect change in, both in the magickal and the mundane. But, when we do work that is based on healing our souls, on growing and becoming a more evolved person, everything else seems a tad meaningless. It is the magnus opus- the great work.
December’s challenge was to do one meditative act, every day, for 20-30 minutes, and then blog about our experience. In all of the areas of my life, it seemed that my love life was the area that needed the most attention. We accept the love that we think we deserve, and in the past, I didn’t think I deserved much. So, every day for a month, I looked myself in the mirror, sipped a “potion” of flowers and fruit, and said “I love you, Caroline.” It was really hard!
What was harder though was the vulnerability that came with blogging my experiences. This blog is also used for my business website. Posting my imperfections would lead to a decline in page “likes”, as well as a decline in business. Not only that, but I started becoming very ashamed that the gentleman that I have been seeing would find it, read it, and run away screaming. We’re both adults. And adults have baggage. I am okay being honest and open, but I also want to have more control over what I reveal and when. Just as we are savouring getting to know each other, I don’t want to vomit all of my issues in his lap. I believe that there is bravery in vulnerability, but there is also a time and place, sometimes safer than others.
I am not doing the #domagick challenge for January and February. Because I started the December challenge so late, and needed a bit of time to recover, it didn’t make sense to start. The February challenge is tied to the January challenge, and I am doing another personal challenge for February. I am not sure if he has announced one for March, but most likely, I will start participating again.
However, when I do start participating again, I will not be using this website/ blog. I will have another one set up, and will move all of the entries regarding December’s challenge over there. I will be sharing those entries only where I feel confident to do so, which will be in two magick related groups, and on my Facebook “safe list”.
I also gained something else very valuable from this challenge. I learned that yes, in fact, I CAN do ritual AND blog every day, all while working a full time job and running a business.
I would like to thank those of you who did follow me on this journey, and hope that you have equal interest in my next challenge. And M, if you did in fact read those entries, thank you for not running away screaming. Although you are literally on the other side of the world right now. If you didn’t read them, and don’t know what I’m talking about, please disregard 🙂