#domagick The L-Bomb: Day 7

One week into this.  It’s going well.  I’m not sure what I was expecting.  I’m not sure the goal of the outcome.  But, I am far more comfortable with the word “love”.  I look forward to doing this ritual, and it doesn’t feel awkward or uncomfortable anymore.

Today I changed things up a bit.  I told myself that I love myself as I am.  I love myself because of my flaws, my quirks, my talents and my gifts.  I love my imperfections, my strive for balance, my honesty, my determination, my steadfastness and my unwavering nature.  But than I thought, should I need a reason to love myself?  We all hide the not so pleasant parts of ourselves, and embracing both my light and my shadow is important to me.  I get a lot of flack for it.  As a tarot reader, I’m supposed to be all light and love all the time.  But to me, that tastes bitter like artificial candy.  The white-lighter types can’t handle my down-to-earth nature.  I scare them.  I am okay with that.  I want to be as authentically me as I can be- a full spectrum of dark and light, of greens and greys.  I want to be the ripest, juiciest peach plucked right from the tree.  Fuck those jealous aspartame bitches!  I am going to be me, because I have no interest in pretending to be one of them.

Just shy of 1/4 done this challenge.

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